i almost forgot!

my dads first cousin was a freakin movie star! i know its awesome.

he was the main charcter in the movie midnight express.
i think it was about a man who went to a foriegn country and some how got involved in drugs and the law.
bad combination.
so he goes to a prison where he is treated very badly by the guards. also while he is in prison he is trying to get out by getting in contact with the american embacy.

well i suck at sumarizing movies, especially when i haven't seen them. you see the movie is rated R and i was never aloud to watch it. but now that i am reminded of it i will put it on my netflix.

his name was brad davis. unfortunatly h e got cought up in the holywood lifestyle and had a cocaine addiction. from this he contracted AIDS, and died at age 41.

well i suck at technology..

the lamb blog spot went to the dogs, no offense blog master riley. so here are my thoughts on christopher moore's book.

- i thought that it was a realy interesting and funny book.

-i really didnt like when biff and maggie had sex. it was just really not somthin g that i wanted to hear about two twelve year olds participating in. like i know that for people in those days it was completly normal but i just could never think of them in them as the inocent children as they were before. i liked the yongness of them that moore showed when they would play games and then bam they did it. i hated that part

-now i could have sworn that in some sunday school lesson i was tought that jesus didnt meet the wise men until he was about three years old. yes they stated their journey when the star was in the sky, so since they were walking and all they ended up meeting jesus and giving him the frankincinse, gold, and myhr around his third birthday. so whaen this random fact popped in to my head i started to think how much of this story is actualy true to the bible. i mean yeah i have been going to church since birth and pretty much know all of the bible basics, but i mean i dont really find the basics to come in handy when your are analyzing the retelling of christ life.

christmas everything

every single year around the holiday of thanksgiving our mailbox begins to fill up with catalogs selling expensive children cloths; not regular cloths, these are christmas themed. each page is filled with smiling boys and girls wearing matching sunday dresses and sweaters. on ocasion they even manage to get the whole family to match. its great. anyway my grandmother every year picks out an outfit, most likly matching, to wear for chrismas festivities. these festivities consist of things such as...
-waiting, waiting, and waiting in phipps plaza to take a picture on what my mom always said was the prettiest santa's knee
-the christmas eve sevice at the church, where me and my brother awaited the day that we would be able to hold the candel all by ourselves
-and of chorse the following afternoon, christmas day, when we would all go to my grandmothers house and one last time put on the dress and the large ribbon in my hair the whole time thinking at least i wont have to wear it again after this!

but you cant buy a christmas dress and not christmas pajamas. so yes, all of the cousins would each year would wear matching x-mas pjs. one year they would be red and green striped long johns and the next year covered in animals from the north pole.

but what sucked the most about all of the stuff was that the clothes and pajamas would come at least a month before christmas. so that dress hanging in my closet and the pajamas sealed up in a bag on my dresser became an evil reminder of how far away
christmas was.

ghetto oedipus

all of this fate and free will stuff is super confusing. even after discusson after discussion after discusion, i sill feel quite confused. not in the way that i dont know what is going on but that i have now even more unanswered questions than i did before.

what if you could change your fate
who decides your fate
when wil you reach your fate
whare will your fate take you
and how are you able to live your own life when the outcome has already been decided.
we have been in the other direction as well. questioning if fate is even in existance.

since the last blog i have not really made much progress on my personal opinion. we can never really know the truth behind it unless we had personal experience therefore i have been baseing my thoughts off of those of others. i have not had a fate based experience and i feel that is the only way i could truly come to a verdict. untill then i will simply hope someone else finds the soulution. until then i will live my life just wondering if my life has already been determined

free will or fate?.......

this is a challenging question. mainly because i cant think of an experience to back my decision or even help me come to a decision. i think free will and fate can sometimes tie in together. like when you follow your heart that will assure the outcome of your fate. but if you go around second guessing yourself all of the time or making your decision based off of others then it is your insecurity or someone else determining your outcome in life. where with fate your life is already planned out. you could also argue that if you really have a fate in life then it will happen no matter what choices are made. that things will, in the end, balence out and you will follow through with your destiny.
i would like to believe that you have a fate just so some of the pressure is lifted off of your shoulders. you can do whatever and no matter what, you will acomplish the same thing. but what if your fate ended negativly. then it would suck to live your life knowing that it just a pile of crap and you had no ability to change it.